Written By Amy
“The Lord is my light and my salvation–whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life, of whom shall I be afraid?” Psalm 27:1
Lately, my son Hunter has been struggling with bedtime. He is fearful. This is not the fear of the dark he experienced as a toddler, but now, at ten years old, more of a fear of the world and the bad in it.
When I tuck him in, we talk. I explain night after night that there is nothing that will harm him. I explain that he is safe in our house, with our locked doors and most importantly our ferocious dog Roxie (actually, Roxie is the sweetest thing ever, but has been known to have the 6’5″ UPS man backed against the wall of our front porch from time to time!). Sandwiched between Hannah’s and Maddie’s room, and just down the hall from ours, Hunter’s room seems so cozy and protected. But that is not how he feels. He asks me to pray for him, which I do and that seems to give him some comfort. Yet as I leave his room and say goodnight one last time, I wonder how he can possibly feel unsafe? We are all here around him, so close.
It is our story though, isn’t it? We find ourselves afraid. Maybe a different afraid, but still afraid. Afraid of our circumstances, that they will worsen. Afraid of the future, or of change. We fear our finances, poor health, safety. We fear the unknown, what we can’t control. We worry, we stress, we wonder where God is in the midst of terrible situations. We feel alone, in the quiet wee hours of the night, wondering, “Is it going to be OK?”
The truth is, we should not fear anything, because we have a mighty God who constantly watches over us. Here are some words from Sarah Young as told by the voice of Jesus:
“I want you to know how safe and secure you are in my presence. That is a fact, totally independent of your feelings. Even now, you are never separated from Me, though you must see me through eyes of faith.” Jesus Calling, p.146
I love the phrase, “Totally independent of your feelings.” That’s how I see Hunter’s situation. His feelings are not reality. They are controlling him and his sense of security, but they are not truth. How often do we rely on our feelings as truth? I do! They seem so powerful at the time. But the truth is that Hunter is safely tucked inside our suburban home, and the truth is that God is a rock and a stronghold and is present in our lives–close to us at all times.
I also love the last phrase that we must see God through the eyes of faith. Faith is how we see God’s hand in our circumstances over the years, his constant presence. It is when we have walked through trials and looked back, realizing we never could have made it through so well without God. When we have faith that God is surrounding us, our lives, our souls…we can shed fear.
I have had many fears in my life….being a young wife at home alone at night with a traveling husband, worry about my children and my parenting of them, fear of our finances and God’s provision. Now, approaching 40, I have less fears. I know my God. He is faithful, and has never let me down. He is with me. Even when things go wrong, I know He has a purpose and a plan in it, and I will walk through it to the other side.
I hope you have a blessed day, filled with confidence and peace!