My Life : I am an Angry Bird, Fire Away!

Written by Jen

This is me! I have been feeling like an angry bomb bird lately. I am creating a bunch of other angry birds in the house too.

I have been getting angry lately.  It seems like all my buttons are being pushed.  When people around me are angry, I respond to them in anger.  For example, my child asks me for something, I don’t answer the way they want, they get angry then, I get angry.  I have a friend who is angry about a situation in life and she shares her anger then, I get angry at her anger.  Seriously Jen?!  Getting back into the grind of school is taking a lot of nagging and the answer “no, this is not summer break.”  Saying “no” makes me angry, especially when it is challenged repeatedly.  Are you wondering if I am PMSing? NOPE.  Just annoyed and angry. UGH!!!  I am all out of anything kind to say.  I am annoyed at my response.  Why can I not control my annoyed feelings, my anger?  Why do I get sucked into the tornado of anger?  I wish I had an answer for me.  Honestly, it makes me really sad because this is not who I want to be.  I read this the other day and liked it.  I keep mulling it over in my mind.  I have some work to do and I need to spend some time with Jesus, CLEARLY.  Any thoughts blog friends?

This is from Neil Anderson in his book Victory Over The Darkness

“The New Testament clearly states that we are saints who sin.  Children of God who say they don’t sin are called liars (see 1 John 1:8).  We are not to judge one another; instead, we are called to accept other believers as children of God, and to build up each other.  Ephesians 4:29 says “Let no unwholesome word proceed from your mouth, but only such a word as is good for edification according to the need of the moment, that it may GIVE GRACE to those who hear.”

Mr. Anderson goes on to tell a story of his childhood where he ditched class and thought he got away with it.  The next day the principal called him in and chewed him out.  Then he said, “I have arranged for you to be home Thursday and Friday.”  He was shocked.  Suspended from school for two days for skipping a class?  He was not looking forward to seeing his parents, and the ride home was miserable.  He thought about playing sick for two days, or hiding in the woods when he should have been in school.  He couldn’t do it, and he knew he had to face his authority figures.  He went to his mother, because he knew there would be some mercy there. “Mom,” he said, “I got suspended from school for two days for skipping a class.”  At first she was shocked; then she smiled and said, “Oh, Neil, I forgot to tell you.  We called the school to see if you could stay home Thursday and Friday to help us pick corn.”  If he knew that, would he have dreaded seeing his parents?  Would his school bus ride home have been miserable? Of course not, but he didn’t know that staying home Thursday and Friday was already justified.   That is how many Christians live their lives.  They live their lives as though they are walking on glass.  They can’t make any mistakes because if they do, the hammer of God will fall on them.  Dear Christian reader, the hammer fell.  It fell on Christ.  He died “once for all” our sins (Romans 6:10). We are not sinners in the hands of an angry God.  We are saints in the hands of a loving God who has called us to “draw near with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled clean from evil conscience and our bodies washed with pure water” (Hebrews 10:22). (Victory over the Darkness, Anderson; 2000)

Thanks Neil!  I needed to hear that. A friend of mine challenged me to read this book.  I am slowly making my way through it.  It’s deep and it’s chipping away at deep layers of rock around my heart.  It is on my recommendation list of books.  That’s me tonight.  Not real pretty:)  Trying to remove the hammer from my kung fu grip.

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Comments

  1. Thank you for your honesty Jen; I’ve been experiencing the same thing. The start of school is SO stressful! Everyone is tired and stressed from adjusting to the new routine and demands, and I’ve noticed it affecting the mood of my whole family- especially me because most of all this stress falls on mom right? I feel like the very fact that you are willing to admit the issue and look to God for an answer means that you are on your way out of it ;).

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