Is there something you are gripping tightly to in your life? Fingers clenched, nails pressing into palms? I do this with all kinds of little things in my life. I am angry at something my husband said or did, so I will choose to hold on to that anger. I continue to replay the words or actions (or lack of ), tasting the bitter over and over. Or, I cling to feelings of want, unsatisfied desires, choosing not to look at all the incredible blessings that are already present in my life. Sometimes it’s as small as not finishing my To Do list (since that’s such a rare occasion–not!) and instead of looking forward to the new day ahead which provides me with many more hours God has given me, I sit in the guilt and pressure of what I didn’t get done the day before.
But Lot’s wife looked back, and she became a pillar of salt. Genesis 19:26
What in your life are you holding on to? What is it that keeps you imprisoned in thoughts, behaviors, sadness? Or put another way, what are you choosing to look back on that prevents you from experiencing today’s fullest, today’s grace, today’s blessings and peace?
Lot and his wife were directly told by an angel to flee their home and city, for destruction was imminent. But the angel told them not to look back as they fled. Lot’s wife wasn’t able to do that–and as a wife who has built a home and raised children in it, living in the same city for many years, I also may have turned my head for a glimpse of it going up in flames. It is difficult to let go of the old, trusting God for the new.
Like a heavy backpack that is done serving its purpose, let’s choose to take off whatever is weighing on us. Angry at a spouse? Let it go–own your part and forgive. Wanting different circumstances in your life? Open your eyes, look at what God has given you right now. Needing to walk away from something harmful in your life, but frightening to do so? God will give you courage.
While we may not become a pillar of salt for continuing to look behind us, we miss out on the blessings God has before us. And because he is a wise and patient parent, he let’s us work that out when we are ready. Let’s just not take too long to squint into the horizon and kick up the dust on a new path ahead.